Myspace/Facebook

The other day I was talking with a friend and he asked me why I don't have a myspace or facebook anymore. My answer was that I don't really want them in my life at the moment. He said “you're a little wired sometimes”. I have been thinking about this for a while now and I thought I would blog about it and explain the reasons behind deleting my myspace and facebook.


There are many reason why I made the choice to delete my myspace and facebook. The first reason is that last semester I studied Psychology which was the best subject that I did. I learnt about a disorder called Internet addiction, which consists of spending an inordinate amount of time on the Internet and the inability to control online use. I felt that I was slipping quickly into this addiction so I decided to replace the myspace and facebook time with reading and prayer.


The second reason was that I am a procrastinator and the best thing for me to procrastinate on was myspace and facebook. Last semester all my assignments where finished a week before, if not two weeks before, they were due. This just shows that I did less procrastinating and more study. The decision to delete the two was not that easy but I think I am now a little better with my time.


The third and final reason that I deleted them both was that I was suffering from depression. I didn't want to be apart of the world, I just wanted to be on my own. Although I believe the depression is under control now, I have made the decision not to get myspace and facebook back.


I know for some people this is hard to understand but I believe that it is the best option for me. I know there are quite a few benefits to myspace and facebook but like I said to my friend, right now I don't need them in my life. I hope this has cleared some things up. I have been meaning to write this down for weeks now so I am glad I have finally blogged it. There are quite a few more blogs coming.


Blessings
Jesz

PIANO

For the people out there who don't know…I play the piano! Not very well, but I do play it. I have just recently bought a CD of piano music. There is nothing else on the CD other than a piano being played. Every time I listen to it, it's like something inside of me turns on and just draws me in.


I had a friend over the other day. I don't need to mention names because they know who they are. He really didn't like the piano music. It got me thinking, why do I like it so much? What is it about the piano that brings so much joy to my ears and my heart? I came up with this: When I listen to a good piece of piano music, I can feel the passion, I can see the passion. The music comes alive and I can see the story that it is trying to tell. You can feel the emotion, you can see the music dance. It's the most amazing feeling.


I was listening to a piece of music called 'Josh and Raya' and before I knew whom the song was about or the story behind it I could see the story that was being told. I still don't completely know what the song is about but when I listen to it my heart aches. The story that I see coming alive is one of sadness, of two lovers who are killed and the subsequent pain that goes with death, the ups and downs of trying to come to terms with it all and realizing that no matter what, it will always be there. The pain will never go away, it just becomes lighter. I see and feel this terrible pain rush over me and I cry. If you have time to listen to this piece of music its on my myspace. Please do listen to it because there are no words in the world that can explain how it makes you feel and the story that it will tell you.


How does a piece of music make you feel this way? How do a bunch of notes on a page tell a story so well, with so much emotion? I hear the music, but I feel the passion, the emotion and the pain and suffering of loss. It just amazes me that music can do this. Saying this, this piece of music was written and played by the same person, but if I were to play it, I believe it would create a completely different emotion and may not sound anything like the original, because it is telling a different story.


It's not always about the music but the ability and the emotion. The ability to be able to express the emotion through music – it is such a God given talent. I would like to thank Joshua Spiers for writing this song and for being willing to share it with the rest of the world because I know its not easy to share your music and what is close to your heart. I wish the joy that I get from listening to music to fall upon everyone because it is such a blessing.


God Bless
Jesz